Angel On My Shoulder

By Larry Shurilla

There’s an angel on my shoulder
That wasn’t here yesterday
That’s because we laid her down
Not so very far away
She comes around when I’m feeling down
Whispers, Hold on Dad, you must be strong
Got an angel on my shoulder
She wasn’t here yesterday

I hugged you in a drizzling rain
Held on tight before the police came
Watched you stand in line for a snack at nine
Wished I was there, not you
This dark thing came right at your bloom
A force so strong it tricked your mind
Got an angel on my shoulder, saying,
Dad, that wasn’t really me

When you’ve done your best and it’s not enough
You tried and cried and tried
But that doesn’t help so very much,
When you’ve kissed her cheek, Good bye
Some things we cannot understand
Strange voices making cruel demands
You thought they were from Heaven
Even though they came from Hell

The Good Lord knew how strong you were
Knew your heart was pure and good
It seems He always brings those home
Much younger than He should
She comes around when golden sun goes down
Whispers, Look here, Dad, beauty’s all around
Got an angel on my shoulder
That wasn’t here yesterday

She comes to me in her daughter’s laugh
Saying, Take good care, Dad, she’s all I had

There’s an angel on my shoulder
She wasn’t here yesterday
That’s because we laid her down
Not so very far away
She comes around when I’m feeling down
Almost any time of day
Whispers, Sorry Dad, It’ll be OK
I’m up here now, to light, your way

Mitchell’s Pumpkin

By Larry Shurilla

Mitchell woke up to the sound of poplar leaves rustling behind a cold, October breeze. “Maybe we’ll go to the pumpkin farm today?” he thought as he put on his favorite football jersey and hurried downstairs to breakfast.

Fall was Mitchell’s favorite time of the year. He loved playing football, watching the autumn leaves turn bright shades of orange, red, and yellow, and of course, he loved Halloween! Each year after school began in September and as the days turned cooler and cooler, Mitchell knew that Halloween couldn’t be far away. That meant he could start buying Halloween candies and begin hunting for just the right costume for trick-or-treating, but Mitchell’s favorite Halloween custom was picking out and carving pumpkins. He especially loved gathering with his family into a darkened room to sing spooky Halloween songs around a freshly carved jack-o-lantern with a candle burning brightly inside it.

“My pumpkin will be the biggest and most expensive pumpkin ever,” bragged Mitchell’s sister, Molly, as they sat down at the breakfast table, “and everyone will wish it was theirs!”

“Biggest, maybe,” said Mom, “but don’t count on it being the most expensive.”

“I don’t care how big mine is,” said Mitchell, “but I hope I can find one with a perfect shape and deep orange color!”

“Well today’s the day we go to the pumpkin farm,” began Mom, “and you two better dress warmly because there’s quite a chilly breeze blowing outside.”

Mitchell’s face was glued to the window as the car pulled up to the pumpkin farm. The huge pumpkin field looked like a great green sea with brilliant orange buoys floating everywhere! Molly kept pointing to pumpkins saying, “That one is the biggest! No! This one! Well, may that one over there!”

As Mitchell, his mom, and Molly walked up and down the rows of the pumpkin field, Mitchell marveled at all the different shapes, colors, and textures of the pumpkins. Some were green and rough with yellow spots. Some were orange-yellow with a flat side and some were tall and smooth with tan vertical lines. Which one should he pick?!

Mitchell’s thoughts were broken by the screams of his sister, “Mommy! This is the one I want! This one! This one!” Molly stood next to a tremendous, golden orange pumpkin that was a full two feet tall and almost perfectly round!

When Mitchell saw the size of Molly’s pumpkin, his mouth hung open and his eyebrows arched into his forehead. “What a beauty,” he thought as Molly demanded, “I want this one, Mommy!!”

“I’m sorry,” Mom replied. “That one is a little too expensive, Molly. Try to find a cheaper one.”

When Molly heard that, she stomped up and down in the field, twisted her face into a knot and screamed, “I WANT THIS ONE! ONLY THIS ONE! AHHHHHHHH! YAAAAAAAAA! MOOOOOOOOOOOOM!”

“Alright! Alright! Just calm down, Molly,” Mom looked around and cried. “You can have that pumpkin, just quit making a scene!”

Molly grinned as Mitchell thought, “I don’t blame Mom for giving in to Molly. Listening to her tantrums is worse than getting booster shots.”

“What about you, Mitchell,” Mom asked. “Have you found a pumpkin yet?”

Just as Mitchell was about to say, No, he spotted a small, under-grown, half-green, half-orange pumpkin with a flat side, partially hidden under a large green leaf. It was as if the pumpkin was begging for a kind owner. Mitchell thought, “I bet if I don’t pick that little pumpkin, he’ll probably just rot in the field or end up in someone’s pumpkin pie!”

“I think I’ve found one, Mom,” Mitchell cried back to his mother.

When Molly saw the misshapen, oddly colored pumpkin that Mitchell selected, she teased, “You’re not really going to take that puny thing home, are you? It’s a runt!”

“Y-Y-Yes, I am,” stuttered Mitchell, “and he’ll be the best looking jack-o-lantern on the block!”

Molly turned up her nose to Mitchell, looked at her own huge pumpkin glistening in the October sun and gloated, “We’ll see who’s got the best pumpkin.”

During the ride home, Mitchell kept wondering if he had made a good choice. “Maybe Molly was right,” he thought. “My pumpkin sure looks dinky next to hers.”

When they arrived home, Dad had just come home from work. He said, “Well, would you take a look at those pumpkins! Two real beauties, I’d say.”

“Two beauties?” Mitchell thought.

“Now remember, Molly and Mitchell,” Dad continued. “Keep your pumpkins in a cool, dry place and don’t carve them until the day before Halloween; otherwise, they’ll spoil and you won’t have them for trick-or-treat night!”

“OK, Dad,” both Molly and Mitchell promised, “we won’t carve our pumpkins,” but only one of them would keep that promise.

Two weeks may be a short time if that’s all the vacation one has left in the summer, but when it’s that long a wait to carve a pumpkin, two weeks seems more like two months! “I can’t wait, Mitchell!” Molly screamed. “I can’t stand it anymore! I going to carve my pumpkin right now! It’s so big and beautiful and I want everyone to see it now! I’m sure it will last until Halloween night.”

“Dad said, no, Molly,” Mitchell cautioned. “I don’t think it’s a good idea.”

“I don’t care,” Molly snipped. “It’s my pumpkin and I can do whatever I want with it!”

Molly crept into the kitchen and snuck out a knife to carve her pumpkin.

“You know you’re not allowed to take knives out of the silverware drawer, Molly!” Mitchell warned, but Molly was determined to carve her pumpkin. Molly excitedly spread out some newspaper on the basement floor, cut out the top of the pumpkin and scraped all the seeds and slimy strands out of the center of the orange giant. Molly continued, carving the eyes and then the nose of her grand pumpkin. Just as Molly was finishing the face, Dad started walking down the basement stairs!

“Oh, No!” Molly thought as she hid the carving knife behind her back. When Dad saw what had happened, he stood there with his hand on his chin, shaking his head back and forth. “Let me have the knife, Molly,” Dad asked disappointedly.

Molly gave Dad the knife and squeaked out, “I’m sorry, Daddy. Am I in trouble?”

“I’m sorry, too,” Dad said calmly.

Molly continued, getting louder as she spoke, “I just had to see my pumpkin carved! Isn’t it the most beautiful pumpkin you’ve ever seen?”

Sure enough, the gargantuan pumpkin was a gorgeous sight! Its eyes were the size of California cantaloupes and its mouth was almost as wide as a tee-ball bat! “Yes, Molly,” Dad replied. “It’s an awesome bit of nature.”

“Are you going to punish me?” Molly asked.

“You’ve punished yourself already, Molly,” Dad counseled. “I don’t think your mother or I need to do anything more.”

“I don’t believe it!” Mitchell exclaimed to Molly after Dad went back upstairs. “He’s not going to do anything?!”

Molly had a puzzled look on her face as she said, “I wonder what he meant when he said I’ve punished myself?”

It didn’t take long for Molly to understand what her father meant. The first day after Molly carved her colossal pumpkin she radiated delight and looked admiringly at her creation. It was hard to imagine a more perfect pumpkin, but as each day passed, the pumpkin’s smiling, shining face began to droop. The bright orange color began to change to yellow, then brown, then black. The once hard shell began to soften and shrink. The pumpkin’s jolly smile became sadder and sadder and sadder.

Molly now understood her father’s words. Her punishment was to watch her pumpkin slowly rot, as each day brought her closer to Halloween.

A week before Halloween, Molly’s once grand pumpkin was a rotten mess. “I’m sorry, Mom and Dad,” Molly sobbed as tears ran down her cheeks. “I won’t ever do it again.”

“We know you won’t,” Mom comforted, as Dad scraped up the rotten pumpkin with a shovel and dumped it into the trash can.

At long last it was the day before Halloween and the family had gathered together to sing Halloween songs and carve Mitchell’s pumpkin. “Come on, Molly,” Mitchell beckoned. “Help me carve this little guy!”

“Are you sure you want me to help you, Mitchell?”

“Yeah,” Mitchell replied, “I know I can’t carve half as good as you can.”

As each member of Mitchell’s family took turns carving the pumpkin, Mitchell pondered, “This pumpkin didn’t look so good sitting all alone in the field, but with a little help, he sure turned out great!”

On Halloween night, as Mitchell in his Frankenstein costume and Molly in her vampire cape took off down the dark block trick-or-treating, they both stopped in front of their house and listened to the joyful screams of trick-or-treaters running through the neighborhood. They both gazed at the happy, glowing jack-o-lantern beaming from their kitchen window.

“You know what, Mitchell?” Molly asked.

“No, what?” Mitchell replied.

“Your little pumpkin doesn’t look so bad after all.”

“Yeah,” Mitchell grinned, his eyes wide and dreamy. “Sometimes the worst looking pumpkins turn out the best.”

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I Grew Up With A Hero – Part 11

By Larry Shurilla

During my compilation of Stalg Luft I data, I came across a VHS tape showing liberation footage of the camp! During the screening of this videotape, we scoured the faces hoping to come across a certain Marquette University hurdler and sure enough, we think we found our man. Whether it’s my dad or not, we’ll never know in this world, but I think we found him leaving his Baltic Sea resort. See if you agree or not. I stop the video three times to focus in on him. Sorry you have to download the video to watch, but I think it’s worth your time. Special thanks to Simon and Garfunkel’s “Bookends” for the background music.

I Grew Up With A Hero – Part 10

By Larry Shurilla

Red Wing by Jo Stafford with Paul Weston

Permit me to close this chapter of I Grew Up With A Hero with some of the lyrics from Red Wing, the whistled song that rekindled hope in the heart of Stalag Luft I POW, Clair Cline. Some 400,000 American warriors gave the ultimate sacrifice for their country and never returned home from World War II.

But when all the braves returned,
The heart of Red Wing yearned,
For far, far away, her warrior gay,
Fell bravely in the fray.

Now, the moon shines tonight on pretty Red Wing
The breeze is sighing, the night bird’s crying,
For afar ‘neath his star her brave is sleeping,
While Red Wing’s weeping her heart away.

The All Girl Orchestra

By Larry Shurilla

Sometimes our dreams don’t come true. Well, at least sometimes things don’t quite turn out the way we planned, another dream comes along and that’s the life we live. Who’s to say which dream was better? Who’s to say which path was best? Who’s to say.

When we look back at the life we’ve lived, will we see a moment that changed everything? A fork in the road? A path less traveled? Back in the late 1930’s a Cudahy girl with a velvety voice and big band dreams had a choice that made all the difference in the world. At least for me and my siblings it did. That singer was my mom.

When something from 80 years ago reaches out from the past and grabs your heart today, well, that’s something to talk about.

So let’s talk. Here’s the story.

From the mid 1930s through around 1948, Russian immigrant, Phil Spitalny, and his Orchestra crooned the airways of American radio every Sunday night in what was billed, “The Hour of Charm.” What made this particular orchestra so unique was that it was made entirely of women, except for its conductor, Phil, of course. In the no-nonsense talk of the day, Phil once said, “Give me women to work with every time . . . They’re more cooperative and they don’t waste their emotions on much except their music.”

Phil Spitalny’s All Girl Orchestra in 1938

After performing with his all-female orchestra for a time, Phil decided to expand his act and add female singers. He held nationwide auditions and here is where my mom comes in! Having been raised in a musical family in Cudahy, Wisconsin, Ruth Ruddy was blessed with a beautiful, sultry singing voice. I know because growing up I was blessed with lullabies and impromptu singing as she stroked my back at bedtime, put stuffing in the turkey, or was painting portraits and whimsical landscapes in our den. Ruth was such an artist-poet, painter, sculptor and singer. She had it all and a family with six kids, but excuse me for getting ahead of myself. Let’s get back to the late 1930s.

As Ruddy family lore goes, Ruth’s mother, Louise, once had a local radio show somewhere in Wisconsin where much singing and playing was conducted on a hometown scale. The Ruddy house was always a place to hang-out and jam. Even Ruth’s brother Bill went on to become a successful jazz guitarist and play the Milwaukee scene professionally for many years. When Ruth was about 20 years old, she felt the performing itch and went to WTMJ in Milwaukee to make some audition records for Spitalny’s All Girl Orchestra. What I wouldn’t give to hear her sing those big band ballads of the 30’s and 40’s, sung in her prime! Just wait on that one.

Of all the pictures that get lost in the shuffle of life, this one did not. Here’s a picture of Ruth during that very audition at WTMJ.

Ruth Ruddy’s audition at WTMJ

Phil Spitalny would be considered a hard businessman by today’s standards. Once under contract, he held his performers to a strict and rigid routine, requiring five to six hours of practice a day and the women had to pledge not to leave and get married without giving six months’ notice! I guess it’s kind of hard for us to understand this type of ultimatum in the 21st Century, but back in the post-World War II, Leave It To Beaver era, most women stayed at home and raised a family. A conductor couldn’t book gigs and radio shows a year in advance with half of his orchestra running down rice coated church steps!

As corroborated by Ruth’s sister, Faye (Ruddy) Campbell, after listening to Ruth’s audition recordings, Spitalny offered Ruth a contract to sing with the All Girl Orchestra! A dream come true! A big stage for a big voice and the opportunity of a lifetime. But there happened to be another offer on the table. You see, a certain Marquette University track star and returned World War II B-17 war hero had also noticed the suave beauty from Cudahy and proposed a life together.

So there it was, the moment in time I was talking about earlier. A moment that determines destiny. Ruth had the offer of a husband and the promise of a family on one hand and Phil Spitalny’s All Girl Orchestra on the other. Ruth was always such a kind, meek, loving woman-my mom. She wasn’t at all like her big sister, Lois, who was gregarious and the life of the party. Lois would’ve grabbed that contract and ran all the way to New York with it. Ruth? No way. She would’ve hated all that attention. Well, that is truly a question that no one but Ruth can answer, but she did make the audition record. And she also said yes to the flyboy-Bob Shurilla, my dad.

Ruth Ruddy marries Bob Shurilla in 1947

So why all the fuss now? Yeah, it’s a good story, but that all happened some 80 years ago. Yes it did, but sometimes the past can reach out and in an instant pull you right back from iphones and Facebook to Philco radios and The Saturday Evening Post.

It was a Friday in August of 2017. My sister, Kim, (actually we all call her “Sissy”) was having dinner at a downtown Milwaukee, Italian restaurant with her husband, Don, when a longtime family friend, Paul “The Kahuna” Finger, ran up to her, pulled Sissy aside and the conversation went something like this:

“Kim! You won’t believe what’s happened? It’s a miracle!”

“What, Kahuna? What’s going on?”

“You know I collect old 78 records, right? Well, I read about this estate sale in Elm Grove from a former TMJ employee and it sounded like there would be a lot of old records. I went to the sale and sure enough there were stacks of old 78s, the metal kind coated with plastic acetate. I flipped through a bunch of them, all without sleeves, and left with a big stack for a couple of bucks. I went home and started listening to them. I must’ve been listening for a couple hours and was kind of sleepy and then it happened! I hear a woman say, ‘My name is Ruth Ruddy and I’m going to sing George Gershwin’s Embraceable You.’ And there it was, Kim! It was your mom, Ruth, singing that song! She also sang another song called, ‘I Love You!’”

Most people knew my mother as Ruth Shurilla. The Kahuna was so close to my brother, Mark, (also a Milwaukee musician) that he knew her maiden name, Ruddy. Sissy was astonished! What are the chances? A stack of old 78s? Listening and hearing, “Ruth Ruddy?” Knowing who that was? The odds of this happening are astronomical, but it seems if a message is meant to get through, it gets through.

Not long after their meeting, Kahuna brought the records over to Sissy’s house. He just so happened to bring the records on the day of a family reunion. Picture the scene. Faye, the oldest living member of the Ruddy family was there in Sissy’s backyard, along with Ruth’s other children, Kevin, Danny, Shawn, Larry and their spouses, Rosebud, Janet, Linda and Kathy. Faye’s daughters, Colleen and Maureen were there along with two of Ruth’s nieces, Noelle and Neani. You might say it was like one of those gatherings at the old Ruddy house in Cudahy and the jam session was about to begin.

For an acetate recording to survive 80 years is a miracle. For it to be in the middle of a stack of records you just happen to pick up at an estate sale is a miracle. To  recognize a voice and a name spoken into a microphone 80 years prior, is a miracle. But the real miracle was about to begin. Here we were, a family gathering of my mother Ruth’s closest surviving relatives, about to hear her sing to us once more.

As Kahuna placed the phonograph needle on the old 78 and the scratchy grooves came alive in the speaker, ever so gently we all heard the beautiful, unmistakably smooth Ruth Ruddy voice warm our hearts once more singing, “Embraceable You.” That was a song Ruth was still singing around the house weeks before she passed at age 90 in 2010.

And now my patiently reading friend, if you’ve made it thus far on this magical musical tour, you deserve to hear the voice you’ve read so much about. Let me introduce to you, Ruth Ruddy. The best singer Phil Spitalny’s All Girl Orchestra almost had and the remarkably talented woman that sang us to sleep many a night and filled our home and childhood with song.

Embraceable You by Ruth Ruddy

After listening to Kahuna play those songs, a tear-filled Sissy hatched a plan to get those fragile recordings into a format that would endure and her family and friends could enjoy forever. As Kim soon learned those old acetate albums were only meant to be played a few times before they would deteriorate into a garbled mess. The race was on to save those recordings!

As fate’s hand continued to reach out to us, Kim’s good friend and neighbor, Ann Hughey, heard the story about the records and how Sissy wanted to give them to her family for Christmas. Ann suggested that her husband, Brandon, (who just so happens to be an avid record collector and has expertise in transferring acetate 78 records into mp3 format), make her some audio CDs for Christmas! Ann told Kim this is precisely the kind of thing that thrills him most in life-to figure out how to and then restore antique recordings to a modern playable format. Could Sissy have ordered a more perfect assistant to make this gift happen?

I won’t go into the extremely delicate song restoration process, but suffice it to say that a hundred things could’ve gone wrong to upset the music permanently, but instead, a hundred things went right. On Christmas Eve, 2018, (Christmas Eve was always the traditional time for Christmas celebrations in Ruth’s home), Brandon walked into Sissy’s house, full of family and friends, and presented her with 12 CDs of Ruth’s two audition recordings with Ruth’s radio picture on the covers! Brandon was introduced to a thunderous applause, the songs were played, and once more Ruth was with us on Christmas Eve like she had been for so many years before. To quote one of my mother’s poems, “They’re closer at Christmas, those dear ghosts from the past…”

Thank you, Kahuna, Brandon, and Sissy for making all this possible. Ruth touched each of you in a special way to bring her voice and message to life.

Permit me the luxury of adapting some words from the great Robert Frost, whom my mother loved so well:

“I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I–

I took the one more traveled by

And that has made all the difference.”

For my siblings and I and the entire baby-boomer generation, thank you, Mom Ruth (that’s how she always signed those birthday cards that she never missed). Thank you for using your talents and love to raise us. To help us see the world with an artists’ brush. To feel life like a poet and to hear through your song the melodies of nature. Thank you for tucking that love note in a stack of 80-year-old 78s, neatly placed for us to find while we’re apart for a while. The nation may have had one less Peggy Lee to adore, but your legacy of love has and will affect generations to come. We love you so, Mom Ruth.

Before you go, Mom, could you please sing to us one more time? Just once more, to last till we meet again…

I Love You by Ruth Ruddy
The family gathers to listen to Ruth’s songs.
Brandon Hughey delivers the Christmas CDs
Ruth Ruddy Shurilla